07.08.04

Got bit bad by the unreasoning jealousy bug today. I feel like such a jackass.

Why, why, why can't I overcome it? It is unreasonable--I know that. Logic won't dispel it. Common sense flies into the aether. Argh.

And I'm left feeling foolish, petty, and wrestling with this stupid emotion. Which is why I'm writing about it. I write to figure crap out, and why not do it in public? I can't be the only one who's ever felt jealous.

A lot of it comes from insecurity and my confidence plummets during PMS hell. Are there any good coping strategies? I don't like being jealous, not in the least. Even as I experience it, I know how fucked up my perception is. Yet it's like scratching a mosquito bite until it's bloody. You know it's messed up, you know you shouldn't, but you still scrape away at the itch.

Where is the wisdom that age is supposed to bring?

*self-deprecating smile*

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